another cliche rant

when i was in primary school, they asked us to fill out a questionnaire to judge our self confidence. they asked us, would you change anything about yourself, and what?
i answered yes, and everything.

i found this video from a summer 2 years ago on my computer
don't think i've ever properly sat and watched it, or maybe i just never noticed at the time. it actually made me cry just to see what it had actually done to me.

i read somewhere once, that a scientist believed it was just an abnormal gene that causes scoliosis, it's there from the moment you're born. then from then on you're just a time bomb, waiting for the day it starts to crush you. and there's nothing anybody can do about it, until it's got to a stage where it needs treatment. there's no way of preventing it, there's no full way of curing it, only delaying it.
i'm one of the most pro-surgery people you will meet, and that's a small minority it seems now. i can't go on the support sites without being bombarded with links to 'alternative treatments' and horror stories by people who really have no clue about it.




i have scoliosis, and i will until the day i die.
but i'm not going to let that tiny, little abnormality in my genes take anymore of the life i deserve from me.

i will always disagree with someone if they call me pretty or beautiful. 'cos i know underneath, is the scars from being sliced open, and literally having parts of me torn apart and holes drilled in me. i know the scars not pretty, and i know the lumps from the scoliosis are far from attractive.
but if someone asked me again, whether i would change anything about myself.
i'd say no.
'cos without this scar i have no proof i'm not the scared little girl i used to be. and without it i wouldn't be doing this.
so no, i'll keep my imperfections and be happy with my little abnormal gene.
'cos i am happy. and i have been happy ever since, as it's been a damn good two years. and things are only gonna get better
so love your imperfections, and live.♥